Is so different

I only knew today , what she had from me is Rubbish after all

If you ask ,

Have I ever cross your mind?
I will say , the reason you never cross my mind is because your always on my mind .

Do you like me?
The reason why I don't like you is because I love you .

Do you want me?
The reason I don't want you is because I need you .

Would you cry if I left?
The reason why I wouldn't cry is because I would die if you left .

Would you live for me?
The reason I wouldn't live for you is because I would die for you .

Would you do anything for me?
The reason I am not willing to do anything for you is because I would do everything for you .

Choose me or your life?
The reason I choose my life is because you are my life .......

So this is what I gave out and is rubbish .

KahWai

Alone

Guess now , this blog is just I'm the only one can view it . Let's continue my love towards her , we quarreled through a phone call , is been a while I never shouted at her . Feel so sad , after all , she won't give me some time or think for me that she knew I would view things she had and I'll get sad , and moody makes me no heart to study , guess it doesn't matter to fail . Anyway , I don't blame her is because I love her , I don't mind failing , but is just too heavy , the obstacles is just too heavy for me . I felt so suffer .. I need to breath ..... I hope everything will be fine for her before I do . Take care , and study hard , for her not for me ....

Kah Wai
Need to catch my breath .....

Suddenly ....

Suddenly , I can feel and put those memories ,
as part of my sweet memories in my life .
I don't feel bitter at all , the bitter part is the part
You left me , and with someone new .

I viewed your profile , I miss your lips ,
I laugh at myself for kissing the monitor .
Feel so stupid , I'm kissing an image or picture of a person .
That person is just like my idol right now ,
I can only hope to see her one day ,
I cannot do anything I just can shout her name .
I cannot touch her ,
cannot hug her ,
cannot kiss her ,
cannot lean on her ,
cannot tell her I love her ,
I can just keep shout and shout for her name .

Time moves very fast , a strike of lightning !
Suddenly , feel that myself doesn't really suits her ,
Suddenly , feel myself too cheap being with her ,
She is the world , but I'm only a person in the world .

Memories , will flow ....
But the love towards her ,
will never change .
I just hope , I can get over it one day ,
For my own , for my health .
Right now , there's only a word to describe
"rubbish" is me .

I won't regret my past like her , because what I regret is what I choose . I will only appreciate , I will never ever leave anything apart .

Never ......
Once break , things are different .
But once different , things will never break too .

KahWai ....

Walk along ......

It's funny how someone can break your heart , and you still can love them with all the pieces of broken heart . I wondered if I was making a mistake . What happens when she's my Cinderella but I'm not her Prince Charming ? Sorry , I just can't turn off how I feel . I guess I'm a fool for thinking that you're thinking of me .

Love is much like a wild rose , beautiful and calm , but willing to draw blood in it's defense . Moving on is simple . It's what you leave behind that makes it so difficult . I want to be remembered as the boy who always smiles . And the one that could always brighten your day even if he couldn't brighten his own . The only person I truly cared for left me with a broken heart and with someone else . If anything I've learned that I am breakable .

I'd say you're amazing , but you're so much more . Everytime we talk , my heart skips a beat . Having the love of your life , break up with you and say "We still can be friends" is like your dog is dying , and your mum saying "You still can keep it" . Telling me to stop loving her is telling me to stop breathing .

I just want you to know , I wish you lots of luck in life . I know your going further away from me , and do things you want . I just wish you had taken me with you . Did I make it that easy to walk right in and out of my life ?

So ends a sad chapter of my life ....

Is this love nothing at all?

The distant look is in our eyes .
I thought with time you realise ,
Is not the way I choose to live ,
I sharing this relationship , but is over .

You know I fight for you ,
but how can I fight someone who isn't even there ?

When I'm with you ,
I have the rest of you ,
but I wan the best of you .
Because I've gave the best of myself .

There are times it seems to me ,
I'm sharing you with memories ,
I feel it in my heart but I don't show it ..
Then there's times you look at me ,
is all I'm all that you can see ....
Those times I don't believe right ,
because it is not right .....

Or we are just friends ?
Is this how we ends with a simple telephone call ....

没有人能了解我现在的心情
想看你想躲你难以决定 ......

邊哭邊笑偏要說著一個人真好

I am crying , and also smiling ....
Telling myself how good being alone .....

You wrote everything in your blog ,
I am going to envy your next boyfriend ,
You start to appreciate what people around you ...
Soon , you will also have someone new in your life ....

You asked for the ballet shoes ,
But I gave you more than a ballet shoes ...
Because I knew I can never give you more than that anymore , you leave me by saying thank you , you are happy with your shoes you have , but you are not sad to ask me how am I anymore ....

You mentioned , you appreciate all those things that a person will do in love , but I also realise when I read it , the things you wrote , is not almost , is totally all of them I did it before , but end up you let me go or leave me behind .

Right now , you know how to appreciate if someone gives you those you mention ... I am very sure , there won't be a person treat you like this , there will be a lot treat you the same thing once read what you have mentioned there .....

It will melt people heart by reading it ,
but it breaks my heart reading each of the sentence ....

It will be very soon , your going to drop in someone's heart ... Maybe you're already in someone's heart already ....

What I can do ? I cannot pray for it ,
because it will only hurt myself ...
I can feel my weakness , I never found my weakness in my life ,

You are my weakness , because I never love someone so deep in my life before .

我受不了
KahWai ....