藍色的碗盤多買了一套 , 我忘了沒人陪我通宵

I've bought everything in pairs .
I bought towel
I bought 2 toothbrush
I bought 2 blanket
I bought 2 persons groceries

But I just bought 1 Ice cream ,
After all , I only realise there is no people sharing with me .
Singing the whole night , yet not being able to escape tear provoking melodies ....

I talk to my friend , he gave me a very touching story , about how he dream of the event of her mum passed away everyday . He realise that his mum suffer difficulty from breathing , yet he did not take immediate actions and ask why , his mum were sent to the hospital later on . As a son , he can't do anything to help her , but to promise her words and live better in his life ...

I believe even the last breath is to see her own son and husband , wish them all the best in everything . I knew before she pass away , God did ask her , what is her wish ? I am very sure is to pray for her son , her husband . She will always be in your heart . My friend told me learn to let go .....

I answered , how ? But I did define at last . This is what I call love ....

I told my friend , loving someone is not that easy . I have the same responsibility like your mum have . Before this , your mum can only consider a mature women . Once you are born , she change her status to so called "MUM" . She will change herself , to be a better mum everyday . She cook for you , she put all her hope on you , all her words on you , just to concern you more and more about your future . She gave you 100% of care , I can only say you gave her 5% of care , did you cook for her everyday ? Did you concern her more than she concern you ?

I am suffering from a feeling , a feeling like this , imagine you become very rich , and you have a wife , and your mum is looking for you but you don't even want to care her at all , you abandoned her for no reason , or the reason is that she is poor . She will feel more worst than dying . After all her sacrifices , her love that she have put on you , she don't deserve even a proper sight and the way you call her again MUM for once ?

My friend , at least she leaves happily , because she loves you , and you love her ... She knows at least you never put her down , and never left her behind .

This is same to me , I treasure my love everyday , I gave her 100% happiness and care . I don't mind cook for her every morning and send it to school for her , I don't mind wasting my money on her , I don't mind doing stupid things to make her feel better , I don't mind protecting her from everything . I will change myself to be a better boy for her future . I don't mind dying for her . This is because I love her . And turning back , she left me easily , she told me she never love me anymore after I treated her to the max . Is no different from the story I said just now if you treat your mum badly and don't even give her a proper sight from you .

I am right now more suffer from dying . Because I lost the most important thing in my life , I sacrifice things to build her up , to let the love grow , to help her and myself in my future . But right now , she choose to leave me and everything I have done for her is totally not worth a word call ''meaning'' anymore . The feel is like I am watching a person I love doing things she do but I cannot give any concern anymore . Is not I can let go or not , is because once you found the one you love , you will never have the courage to let go .

If you and your mum were in a gunpoint , one has to die , and yet your mum will make the decision , you can guess the answer who has to suffer the gunshot

same to me ,

If I and her were in a gunpoint , one has to die , and yet I will make the decision , I am very sure I will choose myself instead of her to suffer the gunshot

Is because we want to protect our love ones to the end .