Wondering

I just hate myself so much by keep thinking of you .
I cannot imagine I think that you were just trying to avoid me and tell me that you go sleep .
God am I right or wrong ?
I just can sense it I don't know why , am I going crazy or is it true ?
I just wish everything goes fine , goes well ,
then I'll be happy for you , but I guess your thinking the opposite way ,
Take care always , I'll pray for you .

Tonight I will be all the way on the bed , hearing songs , to clear my mind .
But songs resemble you too .....